I say I don’t remember
But I do
I say I’ve moved on
But I haven’t
I say I don’t want you back
But it’s all I ever wanted
I left my comfort zone only to want to go back. I’ve never wanted anything outside of Iloilo, to be honest. But as they say, one needs to find new ground to make new mistakes and learn from them. Getting out of the comfort zone means growing. Perhaps I felt like I needed more variables for my trial-and-error strategy in life.
My Papa calls Manila a jungle. With a rich repository of experiences, he was very hesitant in allowing me to move out. I endured a month of everyday when-in-Manila lectures and reminders. Yes, I was afraid at first, but I was more confident that I can do it on my own. A month after, I realized that at 24, I am still my parent’s child – dependent and not mature enough. I still need them. I had all the freedom that I needed but when I wanted more, I realized that I also want to be constantly humbled down and restrained. When everything seemed to be in my control, I started looking for higher authority and I can never be grateful enough that I have family here.
I’ve been here for nearly 7 months and last long weekend, I was able to come home to fresher air, slower pace, warmer hugs, and convenience. I’ve longed for it so much and I was so glad to finally be home.
But I was ambivalent. I think I could never totally go back to a slower lifestyle after I got a taste of the life in the big city. There’s no greater comfort in being home but there are more challenges to face and more opportunities to grab here in the country’s capital.
I think I’m already 60% done with my life experiment. In going home, I found answers to some questions that had bugged me for months. One thing is for sure, I’d still want to go home every so often. To have a glimpse of my hometown’s progress, to feel the familiar, to savor convenience now and again.
Here’s a song that would probably describe my homesick feels.
Home is somewhere I’ll never get tired of going back to, even if I finally settle in Ireland in the future. :D
Magbabalik at magbabalik ako sa Iloilo. :) For sure!
As tagged by my baby sister, Julia, I accept to join the #BookBucketChallenge bandwagon. Thanks for tagging me. This reminds me to make time for reading despite my busy sleeping and rolling on the bed schedule.
I’m posting this here so I can have a list to go back to and update. I’d want to remember these beautiful literary pieces.
The rule was to not take more than a few minutes and do not think hard. They don’t have to be the “right” or great works of literature, just ones that have affected you in some way. Then tag friends and they should do the challenge within 24 hours or else, they should buy you a book!
I always find something good about anything I read or watch no matter how shallow it is, but here are some books which have stayed with me to this day. Ah, I got carried away and listed down more than 10.
1. Love Story by Erich Segal
2. The Choice by Nicolas Sparks
3. The Fault in our Stars by John Green
4. Daring to Dream Trilogy by Nora Roberts
5. Jewels of the Sun Trilogy by Nora Roberts
6. The Notebook by Nicolas Sparks
7. Rage of Angels by Sidney Sheldon
8. The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom
9. Thoughtless Trilogy by S.C. Stephens
10. The Zahir by Paulo Coelho
11. El Filibusterismo by Jose Rizal
12. The 50 Shades of Grey Trilogy by E.L. James (Not for the author, but only for Christian. Him and him alone.)
13. The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
14. Loves Music, Loves to Dance and a bunch of others by Mary Higgins-Clark
15. If I stay and Where She Went by Gayle Forman
Awww.. I have a lot more in mind! If you guys want to take this challenge, you’re free to do so too! It’s fun! It made me miss reading and reminded me of how I was able to do it while I was busy in college. I actually have a lot of free time right now, but I always find myself rolling on my bed and sleeping or watching TV. Now, I can’t wait to get my hands on a new book so I can add more to this list!
I’m not quite myself for a few weeks already. I felt down and unstable most of the time, and frankly, I have no idea why. At first, I thought I just needed a whole body massage but no. Maybe it’s because I feel like time is not on my side and in this big unfamiliar jungle, not everything is within my reach. I always have to exert more effort and ironically, it made me lazy and complacent.
I’ve been caught in this work-eat-sleep-shallow fun routine and just today, I realized that I have to do something about it. I lost the humor that everybody loved about me. I know I used to have a pocket full of sunshine, but these days I seemed to walk with cumulus clouds above my head. I lost the hype and the energy that I always carry with me. I lost the inspiration that I have on reserve. I have tucked aside all the positivity. Where did that smiling face go? I’m still lost and I’m not done with my life experiment but I just can’t go on living like a flat line. Tachy can be better.
So just this afternoon, I told myself to get up. And move. To write, read, dance, talk, laugh. Breathe. To do everything that I used to do to get by every day. And damn, I felt a lot better.
Random places, random times, random dishes. Random gastronomic adventures.
And because I often forget the details of all these random stuff. ;)
SEX – Sinangag Express at Malugay, Makati. Click here. SEX never fails to resurrect you from as stupor or a terrible hangover.
Buffalo’s Wings ‘N Things at SM Megamall. Click here. Yes, they are spicy, but I still don’t love them as much as I love Afrique’s Buffalo Wings.World Chicken – SM Mall of Asia. Click here. A slice of chicken with two sidings is definitely worth P181. I’m no photographer but I hope the pictures turn out to be appetizing. Try these places out but make sure your tummies have enough empty space!
Most local bands and artists would say that their favorite place to hold gigs is in 19 East in Sucat. Radha, a famous singer here in the Philippines said that 19 East has the best sound system in Manila. After checking their gig guide, my cousins and I set one Saturday night for chilling there. We chose the Saturday with Nina and MYMP since my cousins are classmates with Nina and her siblings. Who isn’t amazed by Nina?
A few years ago, Juris decided to go solo. MYMP was gone for a while until they found a new lead vocalist, Janna. At 21 years old, I must say this young woman has a promising future in music. She may not be as flawless as the legendary Juris but I’m sure she’ll get a hang of it since she’s only been in the band for 10 months. Welcome back to the music scene, MYMP. You carry on and Make Your Mommas Proud. ;)
Here’s my favorite song in high school, I’ll Never Get Over You. Don’t mind me singing along. LOL.
The soul siren never fails. Most of us must wonder where Nina is now since she doesn’t appear on TV as often as before. Well, here she is, still as faultless as ever. Besides her immaculate voice, her effortless charisma stirred the crowd. She charms, she wows, and she mesmerizes.
She sang Jealous and her other top notch songs but I can’t share them with you because you can only hear my voice in the videos. I was too carried away that I sang along so loudly. :/
That night was amazing – with all the elements to make it complete. I had some booze, listened to great and timeless music, and I was with the best people – my cousin loves.
Visit 19East’s website here for their gig schedule.